CRUSH OF THE MONTH: TOM HIDDLESTON

How It All Began (and Never Ended)

Back then I wasn’t into superhero movies. Like, at all. Then The Avengers dropped and Loki appeared. Smirking, snarking, chaos in silk… And my entire creative DNA snapped into place. That moment wasn’t just a crush. It was a portal. I dove into his filmography, each role layering admiration, awe, and a dash of literary screams. Tom Hiddleston is not just handsome. He’s craft. Elegance. Art.

Five Roles That Broke My Spine™

1. Loki (MCU) – Introduced chaos to my veins. A villain by name, a god by spite, and my cinematic gateway drug.

2. Thomas Sharpe, in Crimson Peak – Gothic guilt, Victorian lace, and the ache of a doomed man in a haunted house. Love. It.

3. Robert Laing in High-Rise – Brutal, desperate, a synthetic fever dream set in dystopian towers.

4. Captain James Conrad in Kong: Skull Island – War-weary soldier with grudges and tender scars in a primal jungle. Gorgeously human among monsters. 

5. Adam in Only Lovers Left Alive – Gothic vampire. Eternal artist. Languid agony. The black silk robe deserves its own Oscar.

Flashback: The Day I Met Him

Press conference for Thor: The Dark World. Me, sweat-slick, front-row, and ready to collapse into fangirl mush. Then it was my turn. I ACTUALLY ASKED FOR THE MICROPHONE, LIKE, HELLO? THE COURAGE?? I don’t recall my question – did it even make sense? – but I remember not stuttering. That moment: his eyes, the quiet hum of “he’s real” and my knees turned to scrambled eggs in my pants. I left knowing this wasn’t a crush. It was seismic. (Also ran into him in London at the intermission of a play and just blacked out, but that’s a story I keep to myself.)

Humanitarian Heart Behind the Curtain

Tom isn’t only a cinematic siren, he’s a genuinely good human. He’s traveled with UNICEF to countries like South Sudan and Guinea to shine a light on children facing hunger, conflict, and displacement. He returns for events like Soccer Aid not just as a celebrity face, but as a committed presence. And he quietly supports causes that matter – mental health, children’s care, justice and equality – with the same depth and intention he brings to his roles. No red carpet needed.

How It Started / How It’s Going

Back then: A girl with a question and a whole lot of nerves, front-and-center, sprinkled with hope and chaos. Now: Published seven books. London is home (I don’t live there yet, I just know it’s my home away from home). Sobbing over Joseph Quinn interviews now, but the original heartbreak? Canon. Eternal. Grateful.

Crush Thermometer: Still Simmering

Yes, he’s a husband. A dad. A man safe from fangirl insanity (mostly). And I’m so happy for him. But he’s still the one who woke something up in me… to write, to love art harder, to pursue messier creativity. That’s permanent.

Closing Thanks

To Tom Hiddleston: You are chaos in velvet. You wrote your name on my creative soul. Thank you for that.


Your forever utterly obsessed fangirl,


Clea

(And to Joseph Quinn, HI! You’re the evolution anthem. I’m ready.)